Future Tripping Stops Now!
Anyone else out there future tripping? Again? I know I’m not alone. But the inner story goes something like this: "I currently find myself alone, of course because I am 90 and my husband is now passed and the kids are all grown up with their own families and no longer needing me. Nothing around me is familiar because of course I had to downsize my home and move to an unfamiliar area so that I could get around easily being alone and all and I can’t walk without pain, who knows how long I will be able to even walk for!
Maybe your future trip looks more like this: "I don’t think I can handle this job. I can’t meet deadlines, so I’ll probably get fired. Nobody likes me anyway I don’t contribute anything worthwhile. Then who will hire me? I’ll have to sell my house since I won’t have any money, and who'd want to date a loser like me with no future..."
I HAVE TO GET OFF THIS TRAIN!!
What got me on this adventure you may wonder. It could be big life changing events or it could be a small blip in time. Something that transports me to a far off pain and emotional torture.
This trip was prompted by menopause. Not just menopause but chemo induced menopause. Sure, being 48 I was rounding the corner of change, but there were no signs. My periods were regular, mood pretty stable considering health issues, mother of 4 and running a business. Then whamo - chemo - hello menopause! Achy joints, extra tummy insulation, tiredness, brain fog. My mind spins - is it the chemo that’s causing all these additional health issues or is it the menopause? Will it ever end? Am Igoing to ache forever? Is it now going to be a challenge to get out of bed every morning because my body just won’t move? The questions are my ticket on this future trip adventure. All of a sudden I am 40 years into the future ready to check out of life.
Well I am grateful for my deep desire to find answers and my unwillingness to live with discomfort. And my true passion to live the next half of my life with vibrancy, joy and a deep desire to have a blast!
So I choose to exit the crazy train, take a hot epsom salt bath and continue my reading of Christiane Northrup's book “The Wisdom of Menopause”. And it takes me right back to where I know I need to be - with my emotions. Unresolved emotions cause more physical symptoms than hormones alone. I know this! I study emotions! I even teach on the impact of our emotional being. So why have I been ignoring them? I have been doing all the ‘right things’. After reading “The Hormone Cure” by Sarah Gottfried I bumped up my yoga practice, clean eating, sleep, supplements. So why is my body screaming at me in pain and stiffness? And then I sat down to read Dr. Northrup's book and the words jumped off the pages right in my face: take care of unresolved anger. As I read those words I felt the anger rise up in me - about cancer, my port scar, angry at my body for failing me, the list can go on. And it did in my journal writing session right before the detoxifying bath, after I burnt it all in the fire.
It’s time to feel and heal. It’s time to peel another layer of that onion.
I choose to accept myself as I am.
I choose to be loving and kind to myself in words and actions. I am no longer choosing to criticize myself for the pain I feel, for being tired, for being me. I choose to accept it all. In that act alone, my energetic field changed, my vibrational blueprint is elevated and that is where healing begins.The next time you are presented with a ticket for future tripping, make a choice, it’s up to you. I am healthy, happy and vibrant. OR I am taking the trip of despair into pain and suffering. That trip will not guide you to answers for happiness. YOU MUST CHOOSE HAPPINESS.
What will you choose?
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